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Saturday, June 16th, 2007
2:32 pm	the smell of burned trees.. god damn it i'll do it tomorrow. fuck bills. fuck work. fuck jobs that don't pay enough.. enough for my current spending habits. damn it, the fucking rent is due and i don't really like living with a hundred fucking people. fuck car insurance. i'll do it tomorrow. fuck speed-limits and the fucking fines they assign. oh yeah, the electric is due. ..fucking shit. Current Music: pedro the lion (1 silent film | full of sound)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
1:51 pm	may ate There is usually something rad on channel 8. I've been watching boats float down the river. Current Mood: chillin Current Music: from vapor to gasoline (2 silent films | full of sound)
Thursday, February 9th, 2006
12:47 pm	so this has been my life lately. The funds I received for christmas have been holding up very well. It sure did make all of these changes in my life a lot easier to deal with. Moving to an apartment has been an uncomfortable transition. I can hear the kids above Kevin and my apt. running back and forth most of the day, I can hear when everyone takes their showers and I know for a fact who ever sleeps in the room above me, wakes up every morning around 2:30 for a bathroom break. I always wonder if he's sleep walking. The apartments are nice though, they keep the landscaping very presentable, we have a couple pools to swim in, and a washer/dryer combo in Kevin's bathroom. Our old man neighbor complains about everything, he's a dick. It's very different having to pay for things like laundry detergent, toilet tissue and now rent, for a place not only to live, but to play my drums. Because I live in an apartment, I have to have somewhere I can be loud and hit my drums. After a hundred phone calls and a ton of searching around town, Kevin, Nicholas and I found a 20x20 storage space that would welcome us. We put carpet down and a couch and did a little painting on the walls to make it a more pleasurable place to play music. We make it down there about everyday. We've been writing songs and recording them to listen back so we can see what the hell we were thinking. These guys really push me musically, I'm very pleased with the music we're doing. We decided we'd call the band THE MORNING KENNEDY WAS SHOT. Like it? We will have some music for you to listen to soon. Our first show will be on March 10, somewhere in the Phoenix area with our friends, the band, Kirsch Is a Monster. The day after that we will be on a 8 day tour with Kirsch to AZ's neighboring states. In the early days of april, nearing my 21st birthday, THE MORNING KENNEDY WAS SHOT will be in the studio recording our first cd. We will be recording with Bob Hoag, the same guy that Not Quite Bernadette recorded a few times with. For after the CD is done, we are planning mucho touring. With all of the talk of the future in my life, It got ashley thinking about it too. We started looking into it together. As hard as it was, we called it just friends. I guess we are just heading different directions right now in life. Or at least we think we are. She's spending most of her time at the bank working or at school, and I'm traveling and playing music. I love her very much, and we have had some wonderful times the past four years... amazing times. But this is what's best for both of us right now. Maybe it's not, we just think it is and we're rolling with it. Being apart from Ashley has turned my stomach in a constant knot. Most things about life are spinning around in my head without rest. I can't stop thinking most of the day, it helps when I'm with friends. When I'm alone it's the worst, the only thing I can do to slow my heart-rate is to find a way to get all the thoughts out of my head. I've been painting, drawing a little and writing everything down. Playing the drums and writing songs with my friends has become a new outlet for me now in my life. In my past, drumming was more for entertainment, now it's a place I can express my feelings and who i am. I hope to see you soon. love, Wayne Current Mood: calm Current Music: fear before"the long road to the middle" (3 silent films | full of sound)
Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
11:30 pm	you could call this, a story from the nighttime: Tuesday morning Tonight the street lights tricked me, they sent me searching for people. The lustful kind. Maybe searching for a piece of knowledge about myself. But no... I found nothing. Because they fooled me and made up things...adventures for me to go on. Tonight the street lights tricked me. Current Mood: calm Current Music: modest mouse...something from a long drive (full of sound)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
6:09 pm	happy december I switch all the lights on in the house to scare away loneliness while I sort through all of my shit. Shit has to be put somewhere. Most of it I don't think I need. Everything I own has to be put somewhere. Everything i own has to be sort thru. What I need has to be put somewhere. Shit has to be stored somewhere. Somewhere is my house, your house, a storage house, a fucking forest. Fuck rent, fuck shit and having to put it somewhere. I should just sell it. Somewhere is my back pocket. Somewhere is a travel bag... Current Music: andrew bird.opposite day (4 silent films | full of sound)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
1:42 am	woo, i'll add you. i got a new one. Sometimes in my live i get these sudden bursts of motivation. They are always more intense than the others. That's a good thing, right? fuck yeah. i'm getting somewhere, maybe without actually knowing it. Maybe not. These bursts come and go, for all sorts of things. i'm not really sure why they go...maybe i just don't think about it as much and loose sight. keep sight. keep sight of what is i'm planning a flight. Fuck yeah Current Mood: full Current Music: J.R. from 72 (8 silent films | full of sound)
Thursday, October 21st, 2004
2:49 am	the day after the yuma show nick stole this pen(insert picture of pen)...from kinkos, it's nice. i'm eating an apple and having a camel... they are both nice. death cab is on and i have glue in my hair. the sprinter door is open beside me. i hear crickets out side. i am outside a house... and i feel like i should be sharing...or at least be using this black pen! i feel sophisticated...i feel inspired. i sat on a trampoline before i landed on this bench seat. i see one light ahead of me...it's a street light. the bus just got it's flat changed and everyone went to catch some ZZZZZzzzzs. Not me? no... i never retire. i'm not sure why. maybe, because i feel all this time with a pen is better for me. i think now it is...i am getting alot done...mostly thinking about the way things should be, and...well... the way things are not. there is always a "Not" part of things. too bad my hand is getting sloppy...i think that right here, on some street in san antonio, i was on to something. i am going to finish the other half of this apple... Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: cutie for death cab (12 silent films | full of sound)
Sunday, September 26th, 2004
12:04 pm	insert movie Everything is friends friends friends. I love my friends. I love the way they make me feel. Fuck yeah. I feel good right now. I wish I could say why. I received a package. I love these packages, I don't really mean packages, even tho this one was, but here I am happy as fuck fuck yeah. Yeah. Fuck yeah.are you listening to this?it reminds me of times before, but at the same time to me, it is so new. Man. I'm...just .. .feelin.. ..this right now. I'm grooving more than you'll ever know. I have a book in front of me; I'm going to read it. Eventually, because the reason for reading was so great, I like peach Snapple, even tho right now I have an orange slush to be slushed. Its good. good like a slush with ice cream, just this, doesn't have ice cream. I've just started my third track, and well I cant wait for the next, I've been studying this list in front of me and it looks to be a wonderful time. So far so good, this listen, this intense listen, is like nothing else. fuck yeahhhhhhhhhhhh Current Mood: creative Current Music: Elliott- the entire "false cathedrals" cd (8 silent films | full of sound)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
12:30 am	Trans-atlantic-ism Everything feels so real to me right now. I mean life does. Everything in my life does. I have reached this . . .point where everything seems so real. I'm not sure I can explain this feeling. Well? I guess it's just finally seeing all of these problems that people have and these things that people always have to do and these relationships people have to live with. Right now, it feels like everything is all grown up, I mean, all of the things in my life. The relationships, the addictions, the reminiscent times, the bills, the assignments, the coughs, the blank dates on my calendar, the conversations, the adventures, old friends calling from the blue, playing sounds that have meaning and well, writing to better express my feelings at this point. I think mostly, this feeling of loneness is from too much of myself spending time with no one attempting to figure a thing or two on my own. Don't get me wrong, things are wonderful, I'm not trying to kid anyone, It's just right now, at this very moment, sitting at home in my room, I just feel so real. This is the last day of summer, I could tell you a few things about how mine was. But I think I'm just going to tell you it was great. Because really. . . I'm more excited to tell you about some things I've planned for my future. Stick around; I might just be able to teach you a thing or two. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Ozma - Immigration Song (3 silent films | full of sound)
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
4:37 am	A few words left behind As you know, the past twenty months of my life I have spent attending the same place over and over again. In that time I have been part of something most never get a glimpse of in their existence. I had the opportunity to: assist, create, share, laugh, be inspired, mature, discover, learn, and feel proud daily. Most importantly, is the environment I was always in. It is such a caring and motivating place to come to and be apart of. It's actually hard finally putting these words down on paper, typing them out makes the end become very real. But it's time for certain things to come to an end, because this conclusion means a beginning of something I am deeply passionate about. I will be taking everything I've gathered here with me: all of the experiences, the stories, the ideas, and the encouragement that I have received. With these words laid out, 14 will be the day for me to call it quits. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Bright Eyes - Lover I Don't Have to Love (9 silent films | full of sound)
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
4:08 am	I am in transition. I've been searching a lot. Taking long drives with time to think. Time to speak with inspiration, and talk similar feelings.Staring at the past and discovering the fact that it is only that. Dreaming upcoming events that are almost frightening. Mostly reflecting, on themes worth going over and over. Articles I tend to forget to remember I forgot them. I am stalling . . . , for freedom, for growth, for life. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Knapsack - Please Shut Off The Lights (2 silent films | full of sound)
Wednesday, January 14th, 2004
3:30 am	around the world It's hard hearing my friends speak so much of Christ. Especially to other people, new people, that we just met. I mean, the people seem into the discussion, but I don't see it the same way as they do. Especially in the since that I need to share my view with other people. I feel somewhat left out right now, almost as if I don't fit in with them, having to make nothing conversation with some Kiwi. There is no where to get more to drink and I wish I would have brought my passport to Surfers Paradise. Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Minus the Bear - Get Me Naked 2: Electric Boogaloo (21 silent films | full of sound)
Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
2:19 am	empty nest meets the golden girls I've been driving with my windows down a lot lately, letting every gust of wind in possible. Just passing through, not even considering most of the things I so often get distressed about. I mostly stare and simply watch everyone else deal with life; traffic, radios, the smell of the ocean, passengers, sirens, and sadly, even death. I feel as though I am just gliding through a mess, confusing myself even more with what directions a cool breeze might take me. I am taking advantage of these rides and rarely understanding them, but they really give me time to learn about myself, and begin to understand everyone else . Current Mood: good Current Music: The Good Life - A Golden Exit (9 silent films | full of sound)
Tuesday, September 9th, 2003
2:17 am	talking with cigarettes It's never easy learning the way things really are. I mean, there are so many dreadful things going on in the back office that so few will ever be a part of. For me, well my eyes are being opened more and more as each successful or unsuccessful night passes. As I get deeper and deeper in my commitment, I'm learning what a struggle everything actually is and how hard it is to compete with so many angles of things that you never even knew were possible. It's hard when influence drives actions and provokes unwanted thoughts. Everyone has something to say about everything. Where do you pick and choose? Where do you know what's right and what's for the better? I'm not sure that anyone ever knows that, it's just about taking a risk and going with it until once again, it's figured, how things really are. The fact that no matter what happens, someone will always be upset with a decision made is a bit discouraging . . .It's fucking disappointing and that's no joke. I hate finding this, entire evil side of everything. I love with all my heart what I'm doing and whom I'm doing it with, but I'm not sure if we actually know what we are getting our selves into. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: The Bled - Nothing We Say Leaves This Room (8 silent films | full of sound)
Friday, September 5th, 2003
1:39 am	this is for my grandpa I've been staring at this a blue wall for almost two years now. I remember when I was brushing it; I had to stop to talk to my aunt Robyn because she called to say nothing more than hello. It was an important time for a fresh coat. At this point in my life I was getting over cool posters and flashy stickers. I had plans for great things, wonderful things. For twenty-three months the wall has been as bare as the day it was painted. It's a shame I haven't moved on until today, it's a beautiful shade of blue. I'm not sure if I was just waiting for more pictures to hide portions of the color or if I just wanted an empty blue to run home to. Now, I am ready to fix blemishes and set frames. Although, I have few thoughts of new paint, I am becoming very comfortable with what I laid, almost two years prior. Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: mewithoutYou - Silencer (4 silent films | full of sound)
Sunday, July 27th, 2003
1:26 am	Sweet Home Alabama Not Quite Bernadette is going to play at the 2003 Furnace Fest Check out this great line up www.FurnaceFest.com Thank you Current Mood: excited Current Music: Thrice - Silhouette (12 silent films | full of sound)
Monday, June 23rd, 2003
3:35 am	some pizza place . Poor guitar. Poor microphone. Poor picture. Poor hand. Poor drums. Poor wall. Poor rugless carpet. Poor checking account. ...Good show. . Current Mood: tired Current Music: Q & Not U - So Many Animal Calls (18 silent films | full of sound)
Tuesday, May 20th, 2003
12:22 pm	This is for English class Wayne Coats Prd 1 5/19/03 If I could pass any sort of advice on that I have learned from my four years in high school, it would be simply this, enjoy the little things. Researchers through out the world agree with my idea, that enjoying the small things will make you a much happier person. Or maybe that's just something I made up to persuade you to follow my lead on this matter? I will give this advice now. Enjoy the easiness and pure delight of living at home; eh forget it; you won't understand easy or delight from living with your folks until you've moved out on your own. But have faith in me, in 2 years you'll look at the monthly bills of your, so called freedom and remember how much possibility lay before you and how easy it really was living at home . . .you're not as unhappy at home as you think you are Don't plan too far into the future; or be troubled, but understand that being troubled is as successful as trying to make a sandwich by banging two rocks together. True problems in your life are the things that are always hidden in your troubled head; the kind that pressure you at 1 a.m. on some busy Sunday. Do something you've never done before. Pretend. Don't be careless with other people's video cameras, don't put up with people who are careless with yours. Listen. Don't waste time with who has what; one day you'll have all the marbles, one day you won't . . . the battle is tough, and when its over, the only person you battled is yourself. Remember the good things said, forget the bad; if you figure out how, let me know. Keep old concert tickets, toss out old report cards. Eat. Don't fell bad if you don't know what to do with your life . . . the most successful people I know weren't sure at 25 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most successful 50-year-olds I know are still unsure. Rent a lot of movies. Remember to check your oil, your car won't run the same without. Maybe you'll join a rock band, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll break up after your first show, maybe you'll sign 100 autographs back stage after receiving the MTV's Icon award . . . whatever you do don't adore your self too much or criticize your self either - your choices are 50-50, just like everyone else's. Enjoy your imagination, use it to create anything you want . . . don't be scared of it, or how others see it, it is the greatest form of entertainment that you'll ever know. Laugh . . . even if you're in a room full of stiffs and you're the only one who thinks anything funny. Know where the line is, even if you decide to cross it. Do NOT pay with credit cards, they will only drag you into debt. Learn from your family, they might not always be around to teach you. Be kind to everyone; the way you treat people will be the way you're treated, and is the best way to make new friends. Acknowledge that friends come and go, but for the few golden you should grab on tight. Work hard to remember the times that you once shared, because as your birthdays add up, you need more and more of the people who you, at one time shared them with. Find a roommate who does nothing but party, but find a new place to live before you're a partied out; Find a room mate who does nothing but stays in all night, but find a new place to live before you're a couch potato. Explore. Accept absolute certainties, inflation will happen, parents will pester, You too will get older, and when you do, you'll remember days when things weren't so expensive, parents were helpful and kids looked up to Michel Jordan. Look up to Michel Jordan. Don't expect anyone to do all the work for you. Maybe have some encyclopedias, maybe you have a smart guy sitting next to you; but you never know when either one may not be there for you to use. Don't act too grown up, or by the time you are, you wont remember what its like to be a kid. Use caution when taking advice, but don't go into things with out any. Advice is a form of recollection, giving it is remembering the past before it's forgotten and then passing it on to help someone else get through a similar situation. But trust m, on enjoying the little things in life. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Beastie Boys - Sabatoge (28 silent films | full of sound)
Tuesday, April 15th, 2003
12:56 am	shower companion please check out these web sites www.northeasthardcore.com/main.html and www.erosionevents.com and if you have not heard our mp3s please take a listen. www.mp3.com/nqb Current Mood: happy Current Music: Thrice - In Years to Come (8 silent films | full of sound)
Sunday, April 6th, 2003
4:34 pm	sky blue To tell the truth, this letter came as a bit of a shock. I wasn't expecting this set of papers to come for a while longer. I'm not sure what it means or what the actual intentions of it were. Is this move simply to sway me in your direction? Who knows. I'm not even sure where we stand. We will never change to become what we both want. The note is wrong; most of the facts are one sided and basically, just absurd. But this is good. It's a step in the right direction. It's a step toward moving on. Each moment that I've been reminded of brings back good memories. And there HAVE been recent ones, but you hadn't noticed, because your eyes are set on what we once were. I have always cared, I still do, I've just wanted different things, obviously not the things you expected. This is what we have become. I know it's tough trying to make the current year just as good as the last, but as I've found through doing the same, it will never be. You've just got to look for good things that make this one something worth remembering next year. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: LifeInPictures - When Faces Become Numbers (16 silent films | full of sound)